laughingtears

Everyone else seems to be so happy,  But my own heart is about to break. With the circumstances I was given,  I still support the decisions I had to make. They led me to a place that's good, if different;  I suppose that I really am happy now. This has made me a stronger person,  It's all been for the best somehow. But my eyes still fill up when I think  Of what I could have had; Maybe building a little less character  Wouldn't have been so bad. I still can't believe it's almost over,  While I wistfully wish it would begin, And though your love goes with me each day,  I were you were beside me, not just within. Fifteen

I sigh out on the swing  With summer in the breeze, And it brings you back to me  Like the wind blows through the trees. I smile and think of you  When I see daisies on the hill, And I think of when I held you,  Though I do not hold you still. The time with you was short,  But the memories stay strong. I don't miss you, but I remember  Your eyes, your kiss, your song. I let your dream wash over me,  Like the water lapping at our feet As we watched the sun sink into the lake  And shared a kiss so sweet, And kissing in the summer rain,  In the woods at twilight time. I do not wish to have you back,  But I love froth

Though the clouds may blur and hide them,   I know the stars still shine. And though I am lost in this wicked storm,   I know that I am Thine. So though my feet are weary,   I will still press on, And though I lie in this dirt and grass,   I'm resting in the hand of God.

One of my favorite quotes: "Everything's always OK in the end. If it's not OK, then it's not the end." So many times I look at my life and see how tragedies have weaved themselves into something beautiful somehow. Remember that your story never stops right here, even though this is the only moment you can see right now. You will live through the most crushing crisis, and one day you'll find yourself laughing. It's not wrong to laugh or be joyful; it's a sign of success. One day you'll find yourself crying and realize it doesn't break your heart to cry, it just kind of relieves pressure. That's another sign of success. And I hope today yo

1) Don't hate. Race, religion, color, sex, intelligence, wealth, education, social status, lifestyle, sexual preference? None of them good enough reasons to hate. Someone who's tried to hurt you? You may not really like them, you may avoid them in the future, but still not enough reason to hate; they have problems you have no knowledge of. 2) Understand the situation from the other person's position before opening your mouth. Many time you'll realize you'd have done the same thing in their shoes. There may be factors you're unaware of that influence their decision. And, if nothing else, you might be able to use your understanding to make y

I found you again last night, Somewhere between life and death and fantasy; It was then, but here and now. Was it you or I who had been gone so long? I felt guilty, having forsaken you like that. Have I forsaken you? But I was there again, to take care of you, To make sure you didn't leave me this time, Just like every night before. I'd missed you, The way your voice sounds when I'm nestled against your chest. I felt so complete there with you. But when I awoke the spell was broken, And this morning, I lost you again Just like every morning before.

I might pretend it's all behind me,   but I just keep looking back At all the times my heart's been torn   by whatever it is you lack I might say I'll cut off from you,   but I can't change my DNA, And I can't change the way I feel,   how I want to take your pain away. I can't change the way you act,   I can't even remember when You stopped being the parent here;   you can never really be that again. I know your failures aren't my fault,   that you keep doing it to yourself. But I can't change how you've made me believe,   and how your disappointments have felt. I try to push away the guilt;   I can't blame myself fo

I've got a new gripe about the inequalities between men and women. Yesterday morning, it took me 3 bras and 2 different shirts to find a combination that didn't make my boobs look funky or show THO (titty hard-on...recently learned the phrase and figured I'd use it). Is there ANY guy who has EVER gotten up in the morning, pulled on some boxers and pants, looked in the mirror, and said to himself, "Gee, Big Man and the Boys look a little droopy today...*SIGH* I guess they just need extra support sometimes," then take off his pants and change into tightie-whities? Or do they have ANY type of underwear which makes them say, "Dagnabbit, I got th

I'm sorry I keep changing, I can't explain why I do, Especially when I know how much I must be hurting you. I want to have love right there, to hold it in my hands, But I don't know if you can fill all my complicated heart's demands. I'm sorry for how I give you pain, and how I tear you down. I wish that I knew how to say something comforting and profound. I wish I could pen exquisite words whose meaning flies straight and true. But all I have are these confusing rhymes, only almost in love with you.